Today I want to share my feelings, thoughts and experiences the latest days with you. I love the symbolic in this photo I took when we went to our honeymoon in Tossa Del Mar in 2009.
It has to do with connectivity, authenticity and vulnerability. Life starts with connection. Life is connectivity.
Without connectivity we are not alive – or – asleep. We are all connected, but very often our mind doesn’t believe in it.
Through my own process, life journey, healing readings and constellations work, I know that the longing for connectivity often becomes life long entangelments of blind love and loyalties, both consciously and unconsciously.
We are made of connectivity.
Connectivity is the first thing we need and seek. I know people who have become very sick, or have even passed away, because of blind entangelments, or because they never found the connectivity their soul searched for, since they came to earth.
A moment in my life and gratitude
I have received so much love and so many blessings from friends, partners, co-reators and fellow travellers on this moment in my journey of life.
The truly beautiful experience is not only that they have been sorrry to hear about my dear grandmother’s death. It’s that they grant me with another gift. The gift of supporting me in saying they are so touched and glad I followed my heart.
Some are even gifting me with telling me what a wonderful model I am.
All these beautiful words and support have brought tears to my eyes several times. Choosing my vulerability was not an easy decision – but I found I had to, when I listened to my heart… I believe it is called life.
My grandmother in Norway passed away last week. I received this message one morning, after we had sent our children to school and kindergarden. The same day I was suppose to open my 6 weeks event.
I had been looking forward to share these meetings with each and every beautiful speaker in this event with you all. After listening to their beautiful audio meditations, I could hardly wait sharing these wonderful moments with you. Everything was ready to unfold.
When I woke up to this message, I understood why I had not slept anything that night. I had a very strong sensation all night that she was leaving us, with the strangest dreams, where all of our family were gathering and staying with her.
This might seem strange for some of you, but when I checked my computer, preparing for orienting my speakers about the cancelling, I suddenly saw that my whole menu navigator line in my webpage was gone. It was all fine the evening before. How is that possible…
Even though her new journey is the most natural thing and a beautiful portal, and I am so happy she is back home, I felt all my energy dropping of sadness, gratefulness and wondering. My whole body was filled with an ocean of truly beautiful memories of my grandmother. Gratfulness for her immence love and for her being.
The timing.
I was so nervous, and my hands were swetting, when I wrote to my loving supporting launching assistant Jerri, announcing the cancellation and rescheduling. I had no time of thinking.
There were too many people involved. Soon the reminders would be sent out. I felt crazy doing this, affecting all speakers, their assistants and the audience, in the very last minute.
What would thousands of people think? What about our global mission of self-healing and peace – for a better world to live in for so many people? All the preparations, trust and work the speakers had put into this co-creation.
All the attendees who had signed up for 6 weeks with contemplation, stillness and inspiration. Maybe, when they needed it the most.
Vulnearability and authenticity
Despite these thoughts, I chose to listen to my heart. I chose to not underestimate my co-creators and the very special deeply appreciated audience, that had signed up for this journey.
I chose my heart. I chose my vulnerability. I chose my family. I chose to only be and rest.
The most beautiful thing, and one of the reasons I am sharing this with you, is that I have a strong sensation that I would not have done this cancelling, involving so many people in the last minute, some years ago.
I believe I know myself well enough to know I would have continued on autopilot. I would feel ashamed and afraid of not managing what we had planned for. I would be a powerhouse, acting from my head, being consciously or unconsciously disconnected from my body and soul.
If you are like me you want connection.
You want to remove limiting internal and external barriers. You want to be whole and feel home and safe in your body. You want to approach life as it comes – with a rainbow of different emotions, stories, miracles and experiences.
You know that by living your vulnerability, you speak the language of your heart. You want to experience your truth. You want to remove your barriers, to feel more relaxed, authentic, healthy, productive, connected, soulrich, radiant and joyful.
My life teaching and mission is inspiring and guiding you who open up and ask, to listen to your story and your silent heart knowledge, so that you can reconnect with yourself.
The greatest challenge is walking our own path – and now I had this opportunity to live what I inspire other people to be.
Each lifestory has it’s own soul.
A grandmother’s gift
My grandmother with our children Summer 2012
Although I believe in expressing and knowing our intentions, and trust we receive all the support we need if we open up for it, the most important lesson to us all in life, is forgivness and gratefulness. Then, tolerance and respect for all life follows naturally.
My grandmother always said:
Remember always to differenciate between what you can do something about and what you cannot do something about.
After working with my own perceptions, hidden soul secrets and connectivity, I changed the way I am living, working and parenting.
When we operate out of our vulnerability we are alive. We are daring greatly – our authenticity.
And, we are all enough. We all belong.
I thank my grandmother for yet another gift. The farewell gift. A graceful gift of life.
In gratutude for your grateness
We decided to postpone the whole event until 1st. April, and I am truly looking forward to connecting and co-creating with all of you.
I thank you all for your warm thoughts, your prayers, understanding and patience. I thank you for all your beautiful gifts, audios you have made especially for me for these days, and e-mails with amazing words and support.
This is my thank you to all of you friends, speakers and attendees.
What is vulnerability for you?
Why are we afraid of not being enough? Why is it difficult to listen to our heart language – our own voice?
I believe we all need to learn and heal to love and respect ourselves first. We need to connect with our vulnearbility, and sometimes, pain and shame.
When we truly love and respect ourselves, we fully respect other human beings and life itself.
Maybe that is when we can fully trust other human beings and the life force that we are all a part of. Trust they understand. Trust their inner willingness to help and give in any situation. Even though there have been changes, or they feel a bit surpriced or disappointed.
Just like you yourself love to support and help others yourself.
What is there then to be afraid of?
We are all human beings. Each moment and situation brings it’s grace of it’s own.
When we are willing to open up, ask and see. When we are not afraid of our own deepest feelings and emotions.
When we are not numb in our own silence.
How does one become a butterfly? You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar ~ Trina Paulus
What are your thoughts around vulnerability? What is vulnearbility to you?
Are you choosing acting from your head or from your heart and body?
What are your experiences?
You are welcome to comment, reflect and share with our beautiful accepting community.
We are all on this journey of life together and I love interacting, so we can create a non-judgemental open space for questions and tolerance.
For Your Alchemy
Katrine
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